Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Future confusion

 Every season of this lonely, I feel it will become sad. People say that the fall alone, is the most dim, but is this the quiet in the winter, I became depressed. Environmental reasons? Is the heart of the reason? Do not know, the answer is that, strangely, is no solution. I recently
end of the day's work, slowly get used to a lot of things. Accustomed to the daily commonplace, used to idle the day. Morning, and found time is running out, I have wasted a year. This year, I done? In addition to waiting is wandering, or sad, has been flagging. Last year has a lot of things out of the green campus, out of the fantasy world, become a reality. More realistic, the lack of a fantasy I seem to have become dry and barren, and slowly sank.
up early this morning, looking out the window shade, found not far from the spring. I look forward to spring, like spring. Recently met a lot of people have been moved many times. Childhood dream was to be a writer, now I know how difficult a writer. Really, writing is actually very common thing, but really want to write, and really easy. Previously always think they are great, it seems that he is the center of the universe, I turn around the sun. But I was wrong! The high-flying wrestling is really heavy, I was wrestling woke up. Really a lot of talented people, each person has some shining place, but by how much, is not there and did not.
since some people know, something happened, my heart gradually calmed down. No arrogant, indifferent or helpless. Into a strange world, opened the door of regret. Why regret, how to regret it? I do not know, sorry, the original should not be to understand. For the friendship of the people is not deep, but it can well aware of me, I really do not know how to deal with. Words that have to do several times, but have failed to do. When I Xinrusihui time, God has sent someone to help me recover memories, help me remember how to cry, this period of fate, I do not know how to end or a collection. It will not continue, can not continue! I let the kite break, unscrupulous fly, I'm evil. S the heart suddenly found himself, afraid of hurting someone else's heart, only to hurt himself. I repeat again, I can only support the ability of a fish, other animals, I have not the inclination to shelter, give me away, I have my life, two of the world will not intersect.
very strange, before I do not like Jay, do not like to hear his voice, or even want to hear his name. I have never letting go of his songs, even if some people want to hear, I mean the rejected. And later head dizzy, and put a lot of time Jay Chou's songs, many times silently listening. Thank him, gave me a lot of touching mood. I do not know what I can to help him, only the silent support.
I want to become teachers, with a sincere heart to teach children, and what a perfectionist, what narcissism, what hate, what feelings are that age, and forget.

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